I'll take my time, as I drift and die

Forgotten thoughts of yesterday
through my eyes I see the past

Well I don't know I don't know I don't know why
I Believe I Believe I Believe in the truth, from inside
go away go away go away from me
leave me alone
ignorance spreads lies
how much will money bye
Well I'll take my time as I drift and die

Unwanted live my life a shame
Who's to blame for my mistakes

[Chorus]

as I drift and die [x2]

ignorance spreads lies
how much will money bye
Well I'll take my time
As I drift and die [x5]

--Puddle of Mudd

Chris Hansen, government snitch?

I'm sure most of you have heard about Chris Hansen's pet project, "To Catch A Predator". Don't get me wrong, I think what Chris is doing is important work. I don't even mind him going to Congress to testify. I may disagree with him, I may think he's getting a little bit too self-righteous, but that's not the point.
What the point is is that Chris is now working with government agents in pursuing his cases. You've seen it, guys get into the house, hoping to get it on with an underage person, and then after an embarassing interview, are then out on the street when the police make an arrest. The original shows were not done with police cooperation, but now, they are.
Does anybody else find this a bit disturbing. The press, the guardians of an independent voice, working hand in hand with the government to catch predators. One gets the indictments, the other gets an Emmy. And how can NBC then call a halt to these little cooperative exercises with the government? A lot of you say, "but John, these are child molesters." Okay, they may be down on the evolutionary scale, but who they are targeting is not the point. Imagine NBC and the cops going into cooperation on interrogations, or on other stings?
I may be the only voice criticizing Chris Hansen about this, but I am. I'm not criticizing what he's doing, I'm criticizing him sitting out there with a bunch of cops. He's acting as an instrument of the police, and that is tainting his program. Of course, I probably am the only one to see the journalistic ethical questions involved with this, but there are serious issues that Chris needs to take into consideration.
And oh yeah, I don't go for pre-pubescent girls, period (or lack of it...awwscrewit, you know what I mean).

What a concept?

http://ancpr.com/blog/archives/373#more-373

A judge gets reassigned simply because he suggests that women have a sense of entitlement. Trust me, if it had gone the other way and he had said that men have a sense of entitlement to leave their wives and kids by the road, he would be looking at a promotion.

Got back from the lawyer

Okay, the basics are this: In as far as I know, I've gotten it down to the lowest amount that I will be able to. $293. I also got the person to agree to a $25 past arrears amount. Now, however, I've got a couple of other issues.
First off, the wifey says that Adams County has been badgering her to close the case and take it to Denver. From my end, Adams County told me they won't close it. So, somebody's got something screwed up.
Oh and yeah, the garnishments are screwed up, have to call back on those. I almost feel like I'm between a bull and a bear, about to get eaten up here. So, I'm gonna go look on rentacoder and some other places for some quick cash to make up the difference.

Is there any wonder why there aren't any more Darren Macks in the world

Update:
Apparantly, they'll take a 20 percent deduction if you pay off 100 percent (after going round and round with her, the basics was an 80 percent offer in compromise). If anybody in Colorado knows of better terms than that, please let me know.
Just got through talking with my CSE agent about my arrearages (up to $5,000) and my driver's license suspension, and she's asking me, "well, can you pay an extra $100 a month?"
BTW, I'm going through my paystubs for the past two pay periods (88 and 77 hours respectively). Now, After child support deductions, which can't even go up to the level that they will be after the modification (the law says that the max they can get is 65 percent), my monthly net is $396. Take away _just_ $200 a month for groceries and $96 for student loans, and I am left with $87. This does not even amount for clothes, or glasses, or therapy for my depression. In other words:
I can't afford it!

Speaking of things I can't afford, I talked to an attorney, will keep you updated on that. To all you NCPs out there, keep up hope, and to Darren Mack, if you are reading this somewhere, come on in. I wouldn't blame you if you didn't, but you can show them that you will stand for your actions. The system screwed you over royally, and you snapped. They're talking about you like your a millionaire, but any of us who have been in family court know just how "fair" the system is (rolling eyes). You can prove you are better than the system and better than the judge that did you in.

Well, I'm about ready to kill somebody, and I don't know who

Guess she doesn't have to declare that income. Fuck, so basically I should just write down "spousal support" on the next check instead of child support. Right. Well, what's good for the goose is good for the gander. I can start up my own business. Oh wait, CSE will come by and say I have to declare that income. I'm trying to find the good in this shit. I guess I'm not a positive person right about now. Believing in a God would be so fun, but you know something, screw that. Screw blaming others. Fighting's the way to go. And no, I don't want any bullshit about "you fight when you surrender". What sort of narcassistic paternizing bullshit is that. Keep coming back Bill, the lie works if you work it, so work it like we're worthless (and on the way out, try not to throw the sewing machine at anybody).
Well, tomorrow, I do three things. First off, I call the psychologists, next, comes CSE where I ask them about that just to see what comes about it. Secondly, I file on the rest of my bankrupcy papers. And finally, I file. I'm tired of this shit. She's dragged me down, so time to cut dead weight.
A little bit of drama down at the old call center. Two girls got into it over a guy, one decked the other, and the mother came by and threatened to kill one of the girls to the cops. Nice, real nice. It was a fun scene, a couple of cops in the lobby, security trying to sort everything out.
And a coworker pulled the classic joke on one of the other workers. Got the TL in on the joke, made it look like she was fired. Classic, even I believed it for a while.
Right now, on my desk, is Vengence, a book written in 1984 about "Operation Wrath of God", where Israelis stopped feeling like proverbial victims and started using a bit of terror on them. In case you're interested, go read this, then watch Munich.

Well, found out I need glasses.

Again, jeez is this some sort of on again off again in terms of my blindness?
I've just been told I need glasses by the DMV. This after I've passed their test twice! without them. Either I got real lucky or somebody at the DMV doesn't know how to administer eye tests. Two people. Okay.

Sometimes, it seems difficult to decide

Should I stay on at Convergys, or should I try to find something better? I have nothing against Convergys, it's just that with the garnishments and all, I'm not gonna be able to live on this. I'm staying, giving Convergys all I have but I put up my resume. It's gonna take a very strong job to lure me away. 1. Instant benefits (health, etc). 2. higher pay (obviously).